This video’s about want & need & the feeling during a particularly conscious instant: moments of discovery, rise to protest, personal needing, freeing, forgiveness, longing, or ultimate regret. There’s a microscopic sound painful to hear, seeking to hear, could we ever bear listening, were we even physically able to bear to hear. The video’s about an instant or moment, like a particle, an instant of PTSD, a cloudless explosion, a blast, something zoomed in on, the moment an STD’s shared. The main character of the movie (hand & eye) has been whispering their whole life. Then the child becomes a teen – in the video, they reach out for connection. When grown – in the video, everybody’s generally failing but in these blinding instants, the subject of the video, sitting in sound, can share feelings of liberation/satisfaction. The moment in the video, as in other promotional materials & products has been drawn out for pleasure’s sake.

Everyone, this is a new project, it’s a DIY hostel here in my house @ St. Laurent & Fairmont in Montreal. I’m calling it Hotel Castle Ruins (http://www.hotelcastleruins.com). I have 5 sets of keys on attractive chains, 2 beds plus extra cots… There’s tea everywhere, good water pressure, heat & AC, a Wii with Zelda & the stereo downstairs has loud power.

Anyway, if you’re looking for space to stick extra friends, visiting bands, artists here for shorter stays: it’s a private room with great common space in an easy location for visitors.

For more info or to make reservation requests & payments, visit http://www.hotelcastleruins.com.
There are nightly, weekly and monthly rates, all flexible.

H.C.R. is also open for quiet shows, readings, art shows, interview taping? meetings & feasts.

I know this is funny, but if it might work out for visiting friends or acquaintances, send them my way as you wish!!!
Thanks!!!!!

“Pacifier”

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“LeDoor”

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hi brendan, i just received this e.mail about villa villa nola
domains. it sounds like maybe they want to use the domain, but it
says it's owned? by you, me? i don't know. it's up to you to
decifer as spam or what. hope all is well. i'm recording a new
album, i'll write more soon. send my friendly hello to all XXX XXXX
::ramón

---------- Forwarded message ----------
From: Angela <info@ygnetwork.cn>
Date: 2010/7/5
Subject: Notice of Intellectual Property-Trademark Name
To: meagainbooking@gmail.com

Dear Manager:

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center in Shanghai, China. On July,3rd,2010, We received HUATAI
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,"villavillanola.asia"domain names etc.,It is China and ASIA domain
names.But after auditing we found the brand name been used by your
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principle in China,your company is the owner of the trademark,In our
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“…The subject of employers googling  potential employees came up today. My current employer made it perfectly clear that they did, in fact, google me before I got hired. I was embarrassed. For gits and shiggles, I googled myself today. I swear I dont get paid each time I type the word “google”. I found a post about me on VVN. Whoa. Yes, I live in Raleigh and am doing fine. A band, a wife, a few kids, a job, a house etc. So now on to the important stuff, ish records. Or fabulous ish records. Or was it ish entertainment? Regardless, it was headquartered at various apartments and houses around Williamsburg. We never had a Froggy Bottom address. We were near a ravine and a palm reader, but never a swamp. The frogs and the swamp funk woulda put some crazy mojo on our “everything’s a dollar” cassette tapes. It looks like ish is still releasing music. Can ya believe it?
http://www.ishrecords.blogspot.com/ …”

“Hi, my family and I were recently vacationing in North Carolina and ran into an old friend by the name of Joel Lindelof.  He told me about your site and said that some of the information might be somewhat inaccurate.  So without any further ado…

Joel’s record label was called “Ish Records.”  Calling it a record label is a bit of a stretch, as it was essentially the same 4 or 5 people doing a million bands and making tapes more or less for each other and our friends.  Jolly Mortals were not really an Ish band, nor did we (to my knowledge) have any rivals in Williamsburg.
Tony Brown was in several Ish bands, and did indeed go on to be in the band RPG.

No one from any Ish bands later went on to be in Action Patrol.  Eve, the drummer of Action Patrol, was in a band called Sistersound which featured Dave Garrett from Thee Squids (Ish band), but that’s as far as the connection goes.

Personally, I was in a few Ish bands myself (one of which was called Star Trap with Joel Lindelof), and later went on to be in a band called Ultimate Dragons, who essentially kicked me out, replaced me, and called themselves The Sword.

Whirled Records put out the Quadruped 7″ which was a comp of 4 bands, including Jolly Mortals.  Their second release was a full length Jolly Mortals 7″.  I’m actually selling a Quadruped on ebay, the auction closes tomorrow methinks.  Whirled went on to put out Action Patrol and Maximillian Colby.
The brownie made of human feces is a funny story, though it doesn’t involve anyone from Jolly Mortals.  A girl made a brownie from her excrement wrapped it in plastic wrap and left it at the doorstep of Dave Grant – the singer of Action Patrol.  Don’t get me wrong, us Mortals types did plenty of disgusting things, but this was not one of them.
It’s an honor that anyone would write anything about a band that broke up over 15 years ago.  Currently, I am in a band called Ratking; the bassist of Jolly Mortals is(?) in a band called Gilmore Guys, and the drummer of Jolly Mortals moved to LA and works on movies.
- D ”

my neighbor is lifting weights. i can hear him cause my window is open. but my curtain’s drawn.

When I was a kid there was this guy: Joel Lindellof, lindelloft… i dunno,, he had a record label, a tape label, he lived in the swamp section of town, called froggy bottom i think. His label’s name is unknown to me but they had jolly mortals I think and Brian Campus’ (son of gym teacher Coach Campus) band and there were many tapes out. So many tapes and they were all made by the same 5 gentlemen & big muff. Later people from this went on to RPG or Action Patrol?, or a stones throw… certain massive swords. Joel and I were never friends… I now think that tape label, name unknown, was of great inspiration to the VVN staff… I’m wondering if his copying skills, ability to make copies, was not a key lesson in the making then there. I’m going to do a simple Google search and paste here my findings. I am looking deep into time and real far away place, will you join me on a journey… I don’t think i will find much….

I looked up the jolly mortals and found this video… Whirled records is listed there and I remember that label… but that was not Joel’s…

Error? I don’t know why…

There was story around the school about the Mortals gentlemen requesting all thee members of the band shit into a garbage bag… the band chef then proceeded to make brownies of shit. They cut up these brownies & sent them off to a rival band.

I am going to look up “joel lindelloff + jolly mortals”.

Okay, so his name was Joel Lindelof. I have clicked on a link to an article or someone’s blog…

I have found him. I found out what he is doing now and I know it is him because I recognize another name from his current band based in North Carolina. Raleigh NC, a cherished memory.

“Oh, Hat Contest” (from the Matrushka Series)

A scattered family has gathered at a ski lodge for a getaway. They spread out to rooms at the lodge, some set up their tents. They play games and engage in activities around the grounds… The little sis of the family is spending time with her friend Tink, in their room. Tink has found an aerial photograph of the surrounding area, there seems to be a river flowing nearby. On the second night, the family attend a show about quilts in the Grand Hall, for entertainment… Meanwhile, a few members are missing from the festivities. A son is in the slammer for a crime he committed against another family member, his little brother who died in the crime… A song performed in the quilt show reminds everyone of the bloody times gone by. After the Quilt Play some of the party go midnight hunting and kill a deer with a direct hit. The dead deer falls down the ravine and the hunters hear a splash… The next day they have a contest to see who can make the best hat. A cousin makes the winner, for it expands upward, high into the sky, infinitely, taller and taller, repeating forever… After the contest the whole party follow the aerial photograph and hike to the river, only to discover it has long since been dammed up and is now home to shimmering bars of healthy kryptonite, an invasive species flourishing in the stagnant water.

“Gorge On Sugarcube!” (from the Matrushka Series)

A child’s been sick in the village for too long. His parents have been giving care at home, an herbal remedy, but the child must stay indoors and communicates with his peers only thru letter writing… Word spreads thru the community of a growing pandemic. Debate is underway what to do, who to send to seek medicine or a miracle cure… On the chosen hero’s quest, he unearths an ethnographic video long lost in the storage area of a “monument to suffering.” The video depicts a time of prosperity, joy, and good health. The hero returns with the cure information only to find that news of his quest has sparked competition, amongst the medical community, to heal the village and wipe out the epidemic. Information is spreading and doctors are educating the public about treatment options… A conference for medical professionals is organized in Tampa to discuss various cures.

i’ve been finishing a new music for internet distribution, i know the name nocarsgo must go, i know. it’s not a good name for a band. it’s a better name for a song. in VA and we had a group of friends and our first band UNEDUCATE EVIL dissolved, we started a supergroup with THE SPARTANS/UE called NO CARS GO. years later in mtl it became a song name. then i’ve just kept making songs under this name but itsa bad idea and embarrasssing some of the time. i hearby dunno what to dub but forged anew 2. 2010.

oh endless array

My cousin runs a farm in Michigan where they take care of animals made famous in movies. He sent this to me this morning.

It was just a year february twenty two thousand and eight i played me last show with beloved kin FUCKIN THINK ABOUT LIFE. the show was at lion club in Montreal,

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this show was too insane,  a turning point & it became clear to me that not only are TAL a great & golden band but that i’d played all i could, was no longer a shred of use to the group, i had served these brothers all i could,  and was meant to, another clue 2. it wasn’t sad just initial incident number 37 that’s led me here to peñíscola with 2 kids i love and a home where i keep all my shit.

i am thankful to matt, martin and graham for my time with them in our band, it was a massive attack, mages seeking a spell. 2day i salute the times brothers, elephants amongst donkeys.

LOVE B

Brendan Reed VA –> RI –> MTL.
nocarsgo.org

what a babe this is a picture of playing the floor tom and praying in the band.
if i were a model this would be my innocent face, my wishful thinking face,
this my idea of a sweet foto.

JULY 1

this looks like a blog. i keep waking up from sleeping by the window. everythings rearranged. i fully slowly realize how long this has been going on. i’m shocked by what i see.

i moved here to montreal 6 years ago. times downtown with gregg white wall, french horn, trash shining floor, bed we 1st made of the rotten balcony & the steps from next door & all the nails i had. waiting out, lucky force, a thing of milk, cookie bag & sculpting figures, paper, new movies to try to get back to before. time with edwin, our family and divorce, out of breath morts riding tight, breathing in own black death. fucking foolsgold last acts. now i dunno. a double album? a son? a confession. sorry tatoo. i fuckin dunno. nothing personal. need the dog to come back alive, we want the to come back!!

this is 4 demos in a demo. demonstrating russian doll again. empty mountains. ellicott. GB. outside my window a million roaring fast creeps:

NO CARS GO MARYLAND RECORDED 2007

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nobody was free from your best friend is now your enemy
was, in a different town
any other week
holding free
all of them believe. always weak.

swollen gland
his house is made of held on hands
the boys made of infinite, cold sand that he keeps in his rib.
all you feel now, feeling like youre always needing
he comes to you, he cant stop bleeding,
but hes not ashamed.

all her friends
punish her like she could end
the same as when the swollen hand
healed you open again in maryland.

what new wreck found out
tha hot road on uphill
kept it home, middle march all erased wholes
nothing feeding
need to fill em up again
pattern of finding, binding, blinding, disciplined,
we fast forwarded vcr to naive section

love brendan
nocarsgo@hotmail.com

MARCH 1

i used to worry a lot about what kind of tapes to play in my tape player. i was wrong. i worried that maybe by giving my son a hug and holding him and loving him, he would hate me and then i’d live fearing him. i was wrong. i was wrong to speak to you like that. it wasn’t my place. we’re getting the band back together.

NOCARSGO. I KNOW. its weird, & wtf. I KNOW A PLACE. I KNOW. NOCARSGO.ORG is now know as ILOVEYOU.com and a deep whole is a place to finish. you miss your friends from before. i do too. i want only to eat sugar now. because its pure just energy.

this songs has been out in my mind for 5 years. release date: MARCH 7 3007:
its about the people i used to be in a band with and love.

ROSE BEAST RUGGED DREAM ROTTEN SCHEME TOMMY DO YOU FEAR ME (THE REASON YOU CAME OVER WAS BECAUSE) RECORDED 2006

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i wasnt sure from where it came.
how come you fear some names?
a quest that u want to be on.

some kind of quest:
these hills here

do you really wanna be so mean?
i didnt, see it thru, i came to you
i have a request too:

the reason i came to canada was because

so quick is that hero, prophet you have all the winnings i see.
theres still some blood for me on the bones of the body.
then why do you look so weak?

i love these fuckers.
they are gold.

you sound like a windchime when you talk.

made late night during les angles morts WR sessions, which by the way broke up too, prematurely but we all cut our hands off every day so 2bXpected… which sucked cause we were a good band in the end. and now what? nothing. EXCEPT THIS:

EVERY ANIMNAL XCEPT HUMAN. A VALENTINE YOU MEAN. WIRED, BROTHERLY LOVE & LUST.

FEBRUARY 14

villa villa nola is up and running and so after a longwhile, yeah more. but this is a real old valentines day song.

FIERY FOE ROOM TO GET STRONG RECORDED 2000

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reach for that icicle, just reach a little higher, when you were 4 you lost your ball
& i found it on the interstate

a red board with white wheels spreads to dreamy rising river.
no hair on your body
your fat tits are still flat skin

i’ll find yr ball from when u were 4 and let you kick it,

i’ll push u down in the deep dark thicket,
i’ll by your bus ticket,
i’ll suck yr dick & lick it

DECEMBER 21

video inside a video forever over and over

AUGUST 10

its not the body pressure
its not the other kids

TRAGIC SHIT QUEST TO CANADA RECORDED AUGUST 2006

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JUNE 29
going around all the way out there to the glacial peak & back to a theatre district there at home. & now more all the way & back again. like many young boys i’ve some cooking plans and dreams of take over & glory and i’m not sure thats called for anymore but we – still – want – it. i’m on a sea side & have only a tape with some old songs but want to do something so i’m gonna play it

NOH FORS J AIR RECORDED JANUARY 2000

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MARCH 10
i was brought to my knees when i peered round the corner and there within was a mound of luscious golden pile of the most pure yeah and also a lot of sweet people in the mood for forever. yes i’m speaking about the only rally of its kind thats ever come to a head on the whole black planet. i saw his hands gripping, i gave him a hug, but fucking tommy still died in front of me & i held his head. & his last words were “i’m gonna be in tha park with my girlfriend, and please forever.” & i was like “stay gold” and he was like “fuck off and die” and i was like “i love you man ” and he was like “dont touche me man “and i was like “go now tom r, fuckin just go” & he hit me in the face with an ore.

NOH CARS GO NORGE IS REAL, AND DVS REAL, YOU’VE GONE & LOST BOTH YOUR HANDS, HOMES WHERE A NOTHING CAN GO, YOU ARE 15, I AM A GHOST NOW, I LOVE YOU, YOU GO RIGHT THRU ME, YOU ARE THE MOST DEAR, YOU’RE A DEAD DEER, YOU’RE FOREVER, BUT YOU NEVER EVER NEVER EVER RECORDED MARCH 2006

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what is next?
what is left?
who is here?
who wants to…
FEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEL?
(stadium answers back)
yeah…everybody

MARCH 7
i never knew so much glory could come all in one H, come back DarT, yr completly deeply missed.

there was a sort of rally at the docks today but only one person from the orchestra was there to rep. we two repaired the ropes, washed the dishes, rubbed down the leaves in the greenhouse (with organic jellies and meal) and now we’re sitting back, way fuckin back and it feels…
so good
my most recent work has focused totally on fuck yeah treasure maps and butts and the connections there within. emerald is forever.
hence, the new band:

MARIA FUCKING REED
BRENDAN FUCKIN REED
PICASSO THE ARTIST
THE PRESIDENT

this is our first song to date, its a loop and goes on
forever

NOH CARS GO FOREVER RECORDED MARCH 2006

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FEB 3
poor laurie in his wetest dreams who knew such a lame turn for so a g.blythe. pleading by the fence in the woods but fucking nothing he could do ever would make his deer friend care enough even after so many many years. what kind of c.bale? “a mediocre copy of another man’s genius” thats who, is that a good name for a record? i had my fingers removed. echo echo echo echo echo

NOH CARS GO NO VOICE YO RECORDED JAN 2006

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your voice does not exist
now you’re not a man
now your dick is dead your dick is dead

you have a busted set of teeth
yr bloody and have no fingers to reach
for my throat get your hands around my neck
squeeze every moment
of breath

yeah whatever
yeah whatever
yeah whatever
yeah whatever

JAN 31
this is a song about speaking to a roomfull of friends & enemies as you are & do they think you’re very full of shit or not smart or are lame or do they love you forever

NOHCARSGO CLEAN UP PULPIT RECORDED JAN 2006

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brother all over
never in a million years,
these are not the days
you look lonely, its still bright out

just the middle of the day
some boy talks loud from the pulpit
i listen to him speak but i don’t get the words
after a ceremony of fresh ideas,
i want to recount how i remember his point

but in retelling everybody i mistake every detail he told
and the heavy huge feelings i made a little bit of fun of
“forgive me tho” i said to the close audience,
“i’m a clown, you know, forgive me”

“louder tho, so we can get the feeling,
and sort of understand”
say the people at the table
who are also in the band,
they were all in the band

i try harder to have
quick thoughts
clean up my emotions but
i fail.
then save my face i think in my own way

just to walk a better one, so all the day could make some sense,
i wrote a play that very night and its better than real life
one mistake i make is remembering back like a dumb elephant

JAN 6

NOV 29
whitewavewhitewave site is now linking a lot, added some secret stash

NOV 23
sel keys i think is my favorite song that i’ve made ina long time

NOHCARSGO SEL KEYS RECORDED 2005

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NOV 20
this’s real weird cause ive put music here what is now a sicks year long goh game. for a while i posted up every single song i made one by one in the room. to get it somewhere else out so i could be near a balcony like say anything or the cave would at least be more huge, with every animal, xcept human. i could fear that no one’ll see these made dresses or like the way theyre made but i’m not going to be afraid. these 3 songs together are meant in particular response to dark thing laurie said

NOHCARSGO REFORM FOREST Recorded 2005

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Now the Garden is Blown
Feel the Need to Rebuild a Way of Speaking
All the Names, Have to Sound Like
A New Way is Worth Beginning

You’ll Soon Rely On Another,
You Need to Find yr Brother
He is Inside of the Woods

He Needs to be Reformed
He Needs to be Reborn
Yr Brother is a Villian And he
Needs to be Returned

You Alone Remake him
Out of Paper then to Find:
Some Reason that the Love Plan
Wasn’t Free Enough to Mind

I’m not there

NOHCARSGO BLOW A LOT (Every Animal Version) Recorded 2005

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every animal
we saw in the South
uses broken eyes and 1 mouth
yr/blue songs have a particular sound
like all times caught
and you found it

now if we ever have another
useless words like this again-
i wanna box it up have it duplicated and distribute that shit
all over the world

my empty enemy now we have bleeding breast
you are my best friend yr dick is dead

when i was a child i had a huge flag
now i’m sewing a new flag out of the two flags

it won’t have an anchor on it
it won’t have an apple
it won’t have a loud speaker
it won’t have a red book,
bright flowers, or a complex pattern to bite
it might say sorry one more time

we could have a confederacy
we would secede
make the north bleed
you need my hand to help with this
just touch something yield to a princess

yr dads a hero now
every animals gone now
for yr birthday, for you i guess like a test

yr special necklace – i don’t wanna take it
but i saw it before (many many many many years ago)

now i look out for that pendant
and when the time comes i will defend it

are you my lover?
are you the One?
are we the Ones?
can it be just 1 more time?

you are the wind
but please don’t blow
please be slow
then all at once
blow a lot

UNEDUCATE EVIL FAT BABY (vocal track)
Recorded on 4 Track April 1997

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A strange choice, I know, to play this song after so long. On Monument Mountain & here now tonight- golden beasts scatterings stuck with me like the night in this song did. that night i remember hearing duane & rick talking downstairs about right then. yr friend yr sorry

fly bird big black bird
cold face these are wings
four sheep three apart
that one knew the truth
that night i was scared
two girls i hid from
i left a secret trail

fat baby, fat baby, fat baby
fat baby, fat baby, fat baby

fly bird
cold face
4 sheep
that 1
that night
2 girls
i left a trail

Fly bird, fly bird, fly bird
cold face, cold face, these are wings
two girls, 2 girls, that i hid from
strong hands hurt
fat baby is sad

fat face, yr hands are warm kid you baby
tell me yeah tell me cuz u know fat hands warm face

baby, fat baby, fat baby
fat baby, fat baby, fat baby

fat hands warm face

fat baby, fat baby, fat baby, fat baby

the fat face warm kid
fat hands warm face

fly bird, fly bird, fly bird

love brendan